| Oh hi, remember me? |
[Sep. 15th, 2009|07:15 pm] |
Hello everyone! Remember me? The greatest transport pilot the Rebellion ever had?
I bet you are all wondering how I've been doing... or maybe you haven't... either way, life is grand, the Emperor is dead, and it turns out that Vader WAS that Luke kid's dad AND that Princess chick was his sister! ick!
As for me and Bror... well things are great! Still together (reading lots of datapads... ;) though he's gone a lot with Rogue Squadron these days. Something about some chick named Isard. I don't really know the details...
But yeah, I'm really here to tell you that my diary, should you want a bound copy for your shelves, is available now for purchase (at cost, I'm not making any money on this) or a free download at LULU.Com
Here's the link: http://www.lulu.com/content/paperback-book/karyn-starkillers-diary/7654300
Thanks again for always supporting me!
& May the Force be with you,
Karyn |
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| A Note from the Author |
[Oct. 30th, 2007|08:56 am] |
Well, as you can see this is actually a note from me, the "author", and not ![[info]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/userinfo.gif) k_starkiller. I guess before I ended this I just want to say a few things, dedicate this to a few people, and say thanks to all of you who actually read about and support Karyn through all her trials.
First, I dedicate this story to my husband who encouraged me to write it in the first place, and whose amazing shoulders feature prominently in this story.
ACKNOWLEDGMENTS
A special thanks needs to go out to a few people:
Amber, whose awful blind date with a cheap “Wookiee” at “McEndor’s” and many other Singleton stories provided great fodder for Karyn’s life. I love you hon…in a purely hetero way. You’re my best girlfriend, so thank you for that too.
Maggie, whose encouraging words made me actually pick the story up, finish writing it, and whose editing made it worth reading. Girl, I couldn’t have done it without you!
Dana, who’d pretty much made me realize I don’t completely suck at writing. I truly hope we never stop writing together. You have an amazing gift for words.
All my Singleton friends, thank you for putting up with a smug married like me, and remaining my friend through it all.
George Lucas, for creating the Star Wars universe & letting me play in it.
Michael Stackpole, for unknowingly letting me borrow his characters.
Helen Fielding, for writing the delightful original, "Bridget Jones' Diary," and letting me borrow her writing style and story structure.
Jane Austin, for crafting the best book ever written, Pride and Prejudice, which ultimately, inspired this story.
And to all my loyal readers who came along for the ride, you ROCK! |
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| 38th Entry: A Year in Review |
[Oct. 30th, 2007|08:52 am] |
In Summary:
Alcohol Units: 3902 (poor)
Death Sticks: 6097 (it was a stressful year)
Calories: 11,209, 446 (disgusting!)
Fat Units: 4152 (repulsive in every way possible!)
Weight Gained: 89 lbs
Weight Lost: 91 lbs (v.v.g.)
ComCalls: 1397 (wow…Bob listened to all of those??? HAHA sweet revenge!)
Hangover-free days: 134 (v.g.)
Shocking revelations: 21 (stop the drama please!)
Boyfriends: 2 (but one for only 3 days so far)
Nice Boyfriends: 1
Number of Lifeday resolutions kept: 1 (v.g.)
An excellent year’s progress.
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1st Entry: Lifeday resolutions, 2nd Entry: It’s too early!, 3rd Entry: A bad beginning, 4th Entry:"The way of the Force: A life dedicated to the service of others, 5th Entry: I did it all for the Wookiee?, 6th Entry: The Flight that never ends, 7th Entry: Practical Jokes, 8th Entry: A night spent on the loo, 9th Entry: Tapeworms and Bob, 10th Entry: The tapeworm died, 11th Entry: Why do I even bother?, 12th Entry: Bob and Bror and Scary Panties, 13th Entry: I’ve got a boyfriend! Maybe., 14th Entry: Jogging is bad for your health, 15th Entry: Dating the Enemy, 16th Entry: The Morning After, 17th Entry: EX-Boyfriend, 18th Entry: I will die alone, 19th Entry: The truth comes out, 20th Entry: Blah, 21st Entry: Three months later, 22nd Entry: Visiting the family, 23rd Entry: The double agent, 24th Entry: The Party, and after…, 25th Entry: The Plane Captain Syllabus, 26th Entry: 10’s don’t date 5’s, 27th Entry: I Passed!!!, 28th Entry: A shocking revelation, 29th Entry: Another shocking revelation, 30th Entry: DOH! & YAY!, 31st Entry: Revenge of the Scary Panties, 32nd Entry: A new hope, 33rd Entry: The Dented Helmet, 34th Entry: The Rescue, 35th Entry: Why won’t he answer?, 36th Entry: Chewie spills the beans, 37th Entry: The last shocking revelation, 38th Entry: A year in review |
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| 37th Entry: The last shocking revelation |
[Oct. 30th, 2007|08:44 am] |
Boyfriends: 1 perfectly exquisite specimen
2100
I should always listen to Lora.
So, went to see Bror, and he was asleep in his room, but Lora and Mi’na (who now knew everything), forced me in and locked the door behind me.
He looked fine, thank the Maker, and had only stayed the night and that day for observation because he had a concussion from the fight the night before.
I sat next to him quietly for a while, and then finally did what I hadn’t had the courage for, nor the opportunity to do before. I told him how I felt about him. That I had been prideful, and determined to hate him from the beginning when I thought he had hurt my feelings on purpose, when all along he was just trying to look out for my welfare. I told him how amazing he was, and how I was so lucky to have had someone like him even remotely interested in me. Then, because I thought he was asleep, I told him that I was pretty much head over heels in love with him, that I liked him just as he was, and that if he would still have me, I’d like to take him to breakfast. Forever.
At that point I decided I’d made enough of a fool of myself, so I got up to leave and go change, and actually do something with my hair, when suddenly his hand shot out, restraining me.
THE NERF-HERDER HAD BEEN AWAKE THE WHOLE TIME!
I pretty much thought I would die of embarrassment, and looked frantically around the room for a Death Star shaft to throw myself down (wouldn’t you know they were fresh out?)
Bror managed to catch my eye, and grinning that amazing smile of his that turns my legs into pudding, asked if I had read any good data-pads lately. Then, before I could answer him, he pulled me down into a kiss (among other things) that did not end for quite some time.
Let’s just say I’m very glad the door was locked, and if you nosey lot must know, I don’t think I’ll ever be able to look at a hospital gown without blushing furiously at the thought of…um, well, that bit will have to remain private. ;)
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31st Entry: Revenge of the Scary Panties, 32nd Entry: A new hope, 33rd Entry: The Dented Helmet, 34th Entry: The Rescue, 35th Entry: Why won’t he answer?, 36th Entry: Chewie spills the beans |
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| 36th Entry: Chewie spills the beans |
[Oct. 26th, 2007|08:47 am] |
Shocking Revelations in the last 24 hours: 8. Please let it be the last!
1010
Found Chewie, and am now on my way to medical. I’m sure my appearance at the Falcon shocked him for a bit, what with my hair wet and in complete disarray, and of course, the aforementioned pajamas. I demanded to know what had happened, and yelled at him for not telling me last night, Chewie apologized, once he realized that the man I was trying to call last night was the same one who had shown up at the Falcon yesterday. ( Read more... ) |
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| 35th Entry: Why won't he answer? |
[Oct. 25th, 2007|08:09 am] |
147 lbs (Not eating for 24 hours will do that to you), alcohol units 0 (v.v.g.), deathsticks 4 (I’ve been traumatized!), calories 1500 (v.g.), Minutes spent calling Bror (it’s too embarrassing to list), Shocking Revelations: up to 7 now
0800
Still no answer at Bror’s.
0805
I really should stop calling him.
0808
One more time wouldn’t hurt.
0810
But what if he tries to call me while I call him?
0811
Oh Comlink!!! ( Read more... ) |
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| 34th Entry: The Rescue |
[Oct. 23rd, 2007|10:31 am] |
Shocking Revelations: 6…I really hope this is it. I don’t think I could handle finding out anything else. I mean really the only thing left would be to say that that Luke kid’s dad is Darth Vader. *snort* yeah, right, like that could happen. Next I’ll be thinking that princess chick he almost made it with is his sister. Ew, gross.
1900
Bob’s been gone for a few hours now.
And I’ve had nothing to do but sit here in the dark and think.
And think.
And think.
Honestly, what is wrong with me? How could I have been so gullible and not seen through his entire charade? I mean honestly, a poor delivery man with a ship and equipment like that? No way! And how could I miss all the questions and curiosity about Han, Chewie, and the Falcon?
I feel like a total idiot. ( Read more... ) |
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| 33rd Entry: The dented helmet |
[Oct. 22nd, 2007|08:15 am] |
Deathsticks 0 (only because I have none), calories 0 (still haven’t eaten today!), Shocking Revelations: up to 5 in one 24 hour period
1700
Why does life never go my way? Seriously, how did I manage to piss off the Maker?
As I’m sure you’ve guessed, I am NOT on my date with Bror. I’m not even on the Falcon with Chewie. Nope, currently I’m a cell, in an abandoned warehouse in the middle of nowhere, and no one can hear me, because believe me, I’ve screamed. Well, no one except HIM. ( Read more... ) |
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| 32nd Entry: A new hope |
[Oct. 21st, 2007|01:21 pm] |
152 lbs (I was celebrating!), alcohol units 0(v.v.g.), deathsticks 0 (v.v.g.), calories 0 (v.v.g.)
1001
Mpffff…neber drink agin.
1015
Seriously, I’m never drinking again. At least, not that much all at once. Why do I get the feeling like I’m forgetting something? ( Read more... ) |
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| 31st Entry: Revenge of the Scary Panties |
[Oct. 19th, 2007|07:53 am] |
Men who like me just as I am: 1 perfect specimen
0200
Was that Luke kid…I guess I kind of forgot about him….
So, Bror got a taxi, and took the three of us home, dropping Lora and Sam off at their place, and returning me to mine. At this point I was stumbling around I was so drained, physically and emotionally. I’d been up since 0445 (not to mention I haven’t slept well over the last few weeks, I’ve been so stressed over my check flight), I’d flown the most important check flight in my life, and passed, I’d gone from thinking Bror used me and didn’t like me, to realizing he cared for me more then I’d ever imagined possible. And of course there was both the alcohol and that amazing kiss that were working to muddle my mind.( Read more... ) |
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| 30th Entry: DOH! & YAY! |
[Oct. 18th, 2007|09:31 am] |
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Alcohol units 8 (Celebrating!), deathsticks 8 (Celebrating!), Minutes spent thinking about how much of an idiot I am: 5, Shocking Revelations: I am up to 4 now
0130
So, the comlink was the parents calling to congratulate me on my promotion at work. *sigh* one of these days I’m going to have to tell them the truth about who my employer is….
But that’s really not the big news right now. The big news is that I was wrong, yet again, about Bror. I see a pattern starting to form here… ( Read more... ) |
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| 29th Entry: Another shocking revelation |
[Oct. 17th, 2007|05:56 pm] |
Alcohol units 7 (Celebrating!), deathsticks 6 (Celebrating!), calories I have lost count, Minutes spent thinking about how much all men are slimy scum sucking mynocks: 35, Shocking Revelations: 2 so far
2345
I understand so much now… I was dancing with that cute Luke kid I told you about from Tatooine (remember him? Turns out he’s not such a kid anymore…he’s kind of a big deal around here now) and we were having a great time, talking about all of our fun flying adventures for the Rebellion, when *she* walked in with her mile long legs, and in a red dress almost as slutty as she is. Erisi Dlarit, and right next to her was LT Bror Jace. Behind them were some other pilots from their squadron, but all I could see was Erisi hanging off Bror’s arm like the filthy leech that she is.
It all makes so much sense…that’s why he didn’t call. He’s back with Erisi now so why would he want to be with me? Like I said, 10s only date other 10s…no reason to settle for a 5.
Still, it took every ounce of will power not to run over there and gouge her eyeballs out!
But I didn’t. Nope, after just a momentary lapse in attention over Luke’s story about how he almost made it with some Princess but got interrupted by Darth Vader, I dutifully returned my attention back to him, finished our dance and we went back to join the rest of my squadron at the table. Even though Luke is an X-Wing jock, no one seems to mind him hanging around…I mean he did destroy the Death Star nearly single handedly!
We talked a bit more and even though I was trying to split my attention between watching Bror’s every action and listening to Luke, I did manage to learn that we have a mutual friend…Chewie! It’s a small Galaxy isn’t it?
Ohhhhh Comlink…. More later!
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25th Entry: The Plane Captain Syllabus, 26th Entry: 10’s don’t date 5’s, 27th Entry: I Passed!!!, 28th Entry: A shocking revelation |
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| 28th Entry: A shocking revelation |
[Oct. 14th, 2007|12:55 pm] |
| [ | Current Mood |
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Alcohol units 5 (celebration, remember...), deathsticks 4 (I’m celebrating!), calories 5500 (CELEBRATING!), Shocking revelations: 1
2200
Lora, Sam, and I went out to a nice dinner with Mi’na and Vile Jareth. Yes, he is still vile. It was a great celebration and we all had the best time, and they kept buying me drinks, though I said it should be the other way around! Anyway, the night was going well until Sam said something about having lunch with her cousin yesterday. Now I am sitting in the loo at the restaurant trying not to cry.
Her cousin is LT BROR JACE!
Lora kicked her under the table, but it was too late…Bror’s back. I’ve been wondering how he’s been all these weeks since I last saw him on Naboo. I’ve been agonizing over whether he and I would really work out, over whether he really liked me, when I should have been studying…and here he’s been back for a few days, and he hasn’t even bothered to call me.
I guess I was just good for a cover story on Naboo. Glad I could do my part for the Rebellion.
*sigh* Seriously, what’s wrong with me? How could I have mis-read him that badly?
Oh, Lora is knocking for me to come. It’s time to go to the O-Club. I really don’t feel like celebrating anymore.
She’s really knocking on the door now.
Fine.
You know what, if all I am worth is to be part of his cover story, then fine, I’m going out tonight, and I look fraking fantastic and I’m going to have a fraking good time. FRAK HIM!
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20th Entry: Blah, 21st Entry: Three months later, 22nd Entry: Visiting the family, 23rd Entry: The double agent, 24th Entry: The Party, and after…, 25th Entry: The Plane Captain Syllabus, 26th Entry: 10’s don’t date 5’s, 27th Entry: I Passed!!! |
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| 27th Entry: I PASSED!!! |
[Oct. 13th, 2007|10:17 am] |
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150 lbs (g.), alcohol units 2 (this day calls for celebration), deathsticks 0 (v.v.g.), calories 0 (need to eat!), Minutes spent dancing around my squadron’s ready room in joy: 10 glorious ones, Check flights passed: 1!!!
1545
ZOMG!!!!! I passed! I passed!!!! My friends, you are looking at the Alliance’s newest Transport Plane Captain! How awesome am I???
Lora and I are totally going out to celebrate at the O-Club. I know I probably look like a lunatic, dancing around like this, but YAY YAY YAY! Life is finally going MY way!
Oh, comlink….
1552
Was Chewie calling to confirm our game time tomorrow (1500 sharp), though it was a really awful connection. I kept hearing a lot of clicking and static over the line…I really need to talk to my service provider. My stupid comlink’s been acting like this off and on ever since Mon Calamari.
All that aside, I PASSED I PASSED I PASSED!!!!!!
Lora & Sam will be here to pick me up in an hour, so I need to get ready…I’ve got the perfect little black dress for the occasion…*sigh* also means I need to break out my scary panties to hold all my fat in again. But no biggie really, since there will be no risk of anyone seeing them. I mean you have to have a boyfriend for that to happen right?
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20th Entry: Blah, 21st Entry: Three months later, 22nd Entry: Visiting the family, 23rd Entry: The double agent, 24th Entry: The Party, and after…, 25th Entry: The Plane Captain Syllabus. 26th Entry: 10’s don’t date 5’s |
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| 26th Entry: 10's don't date 5's |
[Oct. 10th, 2007|04:04 am] |
151 lbs (g.), alcohol units 0 (v.v.g.), deathsticks 0…but fear I will cave soon, calories 0 (v.v.g.), Minutes spent thinking about check flight: 0, Minutes spent thinking about Bror when I should have been studying: all of them
1200
Am just waking up…yes, I know I slept in, but big check flight is tomorrow, so stayed up all last night cramming and trying NOT to smoke deathsticks! I was successful 7 out of 10 times. I know, I know, I quit them, again, but I’m so stressed out…
And you know what the sick part is? It’s not about my flight! I know I’ll do fine there, they wouldn’t have sent me through the syllabus if I wasn’t ready (and let’s face it, I’m a pretty kick as pilot)….No, what’s got me stressed is Bror. I know he’s under cover and all, but I still haven’t heard from him. What if he was just using me to help his cover story? I mean, my family is about as Imperial as they come, and he is posing as an Imp pilot flying squints.
( Read more... ) |
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| 25th Entry: The Plane Captain Syllabus |
[Oct. 7th, 2007|01:58 pm] |
| [ | Current Mood |
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150 lbs (g.), alcohol units 0 (v.v.g.), deathsticks 0 (v.v.g.), calories 0 (v.v.g.), wookies encountered: 1
0700
Am back on Ord Mantell, and have nearly finished the Plane Captain Syllabus. My check flight is in two days, AHHHHHHHHH!
No I haven’t heard from Bror officially, though my mother did get a thank you note and flowers (white Theed lilies) from “Bob” a few days after the party. The family loves him, and keep pestering me about him. All I can do is smile, and tell them to leave me alone, so that I can study. ( Read more... ) |
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| 24th Entry: The party, and after... |
[Oct. 5th, 2007|01:05 pm] |
| [ | Current Mood |
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148 lbs (v.v.g.), alcohol units 0 (v.v.g.), deathsticks 0, calories 0 (v.v.g.), Minutes spent thinking about a certain x-wing jock: every waking one….
0825
I was laying in bed enjoying the last bits of a very nice dream where I was snogging a bearded blonde in a storage locker, when I realized that I was dreaming about LT Jace, and that he’s going to be arriving today! In like 8 hours! I need to get ready! I need to shower, I need to….ooooooh comlink! Maybe it’s Bror! Maybe he’s calling to tell me that he understood what I was saying yesterday when I said that I believed him about Bob, and that he still likes me, and wants to marry me….
1047
Was Lora! I got it! I got selected for the Ship’s Captain syllabus! YAY! I need a moment to dance around my room!
1055
OK, dancing complete, and OH SITH SPIT! Look at the time! I’ve only got 5 hours to get ready…. ( Read more... ) |
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| 23rd Entry: The double agent |
[Oct. 2nd, 2007|09:36 am] |
Tall, blonde, handsome, Imperial men whom I have kissed encountered: 1
1415
OK. That was really REALLY weird. I don’t even know where to start….
Early today Padme & I were in the Theed main market looking for another gift for Lor, and Padme was asking me about how my last mail run went (not that she’d listen, I could say that I was tickle tortured by mynocks and she wouldn’t notice), when someone caught my eye….
Over in a Caf shop was a tall, muscular, broad shouldered, gorgeous, blonde, HUMAN male, who, if you shaved off the beard and stripped him out of that Imperial Uniform (now that’s a delightful thought), would look just like LT Jace. Then I heard him talk and realized it WAS LT Jace! Goodness! He was really an Imperial Spy, and that’s why he was gone! He deserted the Alliance, and his squadron is trying to keep it hushed up!( Read more... ) |
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| 22nd Entry: Visiting the Family |
[Oct. 1st, 2007|10:00 am] |
| [ | Current Mood |
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149 lbs (steady), alcohol units 2 (v.g. given the circs), deathsticks 0…but is hard to resist, calories 500 (v.v.g.), Minutes spent plotting murder of my entire family: 35
1031
I am on Theed.
Someone please kill my family before I do! They just don’t get it. They are constantly going on and on about how great the Empire is for the economy, and how safe the galaxy is now, and how Palpatine upholds the strong Naboo values.
The Maker forbid I ever bring up the fact that he pretty much destroyed democracy as we know it by making himself the Emperor, and rumors abound that he is a Sith Lord. *sigh* They just don’t understand. They support him because he’s a hometown boy (good ol’ Senator Palpatine), and rules with the “Spirit of Naboo” in his heart. Yeah right….like he has a heart.
So I have a small confession to make…..my family does not know that I fly for the Rebellion. They think I fly for ImpEx…Imperial Express, the civilian contracted inter-galactic mail carrier. The fastest way to ship anything in the galaxy.
I think my parents would have a heart attack if they knew the truth.
Poodoo. Padme is calling me. She wants to go shopping for more gifts for Lor. You know, because, two dozen presents isn’t nearly enough. Too bad I adore the little snot, and that he’s such a cute goober. Otherwise I’d refuse to go.
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1st Entry: Lifeday resolutions, .... 10th Entry: The tapeworm died, ... 20th Entry: Blah, 21st Entry: Three months later |
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| 21st Entry: 3 months later |
[Sep. 30th, 2007|01:37 pm] |
149 lbs (v.g.), alcohol units 2 (v.g.), deathsticks ZERO! calories 1250 (v.v.g.), Dreaded trips to visit family looming: 1
2230
I know I haven’t posted much, but there really has not been much to post. I’ve flown 65 separate missions in the last 3 months, and have really thrown myself into learning all about my ship. Pranks abounded on each of them, and I have always had really good crews. I lost the weight that I needed to lose for my weigh-in (YAY!), and promptly gained it all back (not so yay), and I quit smoking death sticks on 5 separate occasions. So far it’s been 3 days since my last one…let’s hope I can make it to a fourth. ( Read more... ) |
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